Standing at his locker inside the visiting clubhouse at Camden Yards, Kevin Pillar shook his head and stared off into the distance.
It’s like he’s living a bad dream and searching for some light, for some normalcy to return. Rejoining his teammates on Saturday following a two-game suspension was a huge mental lift, but the anger and disappointment is still out there and Pillar understands it will be for some time.
Of course, the Blue Jays’ centre fielder hopes sooner rather than later the controversy he sparked last Wednesday by directing a homophobic slur at Atlanta Braves pitcher Jason Motte will become just a memory though, not from him running away from what he said.