I have to start out with a potential trigger warning: Those of you who know me are aware that I lost my father on April 2nd, 2019. He had a sudden heart attack that morning, and was gone without me getting to say a last goodbye. That event is going to play a part in this entry, so please make sure to take care of yourself. If you want to read a discussion of the Syracuse Crunch season, Justing will have one out shortly. This is my own personal meditation on the game of hockey and why I watch it, season after season.