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I'm sitting here outside the hospital in my car taking deep breaths. I was told I need to take off of work to be trained on how to administer the [tracheostomy tube] and keep it clean and I actually think I'm in a state of shock:
How do I do this and work full time?
How do I do this and take care of a 20 year old special needs son?