If a loss makes us question ourselves, two in a row makes us rethink everything. Small sample groups can do that to a person. Double L’s, and both times my own actions have been my undoing. At some point, it's hard not to wonder if self-sabotage isn't an innate character trait.
After the fight I take a photo of my face so I don’t forget. As the dust settles, it hurts more, but I want to feel it and remember it. I don’t want to forget the time I thought I was going to buzzsaw through a grown man and got stopped in my tracks.