You don't have to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders. But Keira Walsh felt like she had to. Throwing in the towel for England seemed like the only way out.
Battling to cope with the constant stream of criticism on social media and tussling with a tough internal dialogue of her own, the Manchester City midfielder was left questioning whether she was really cut out for the international spotlight.
Instead she looked on with envy at those players who had featured less regularly in England's World Cup campaign last summer, her first major tournament with the Lionesses since making her senior debut in November 2017.