TORONTO -- Rick Porcello would be lying if he said he didn't think about it.
Maybe it happened while he loosened up in the bullpen before the game. Or maybe it was when he walked off the mound after the seventh inning, his milestone 20th victory so close he could almost hear his phone pinging with congratulatory messages.
But a pitcher doesn't return to the scene of one his worst starts, a performance so atrocious that 437 days later Porcello still says he "felt like I wasn't ever going to get anybody out ever again," without having a few flashbacks.