My overriding memory of Arsenal's last FA Cup final with Chelsea in 2002 is one of massive disappointment.
Not disappointment with the result, of course. Arsenal won 2-0 through fabulous goals from Ray Parlour and Freddie Ljungberg on our way to a second double in four years.
But I was gutted that I spent all but one minute of that cup final willing my team-mates on from the sidelines. Up until the day before the game I was convinced I would be on the pitch with them.
That season I experienced pain and pleasure in equal measure.